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25th-Feb-2007 05:01 am
Title: Pandora (4/5)
Summary: Cordelia finds Angel’s sketchbook, and now she knows.
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: C/A
Feedback: good or bad, I’d like to hear it.
Notes: It’s been a couple months since I last posted, so the tone or energy is not the same, but I hope I’ve kept the spirit of it intact.


He’s everywhere.

Angel’s voice, his eyes, follows her as she moves, to her desk, to the bathroom, across the lobby.

She settles at her desk finally, with an ancient book, searching for a symbol, needing a reason not to gaze back at him, to reach out for him.

The vision stays at the back of her tired mind, warning her off, but she’s never needed a warning where Angel’s concerned.

She knows the dangers of loving him.

But now it feels as though she’s on a leash, straining and clawing, reaching for her own doom, aching for a taste of death.

She considers confiding in Wesley, busy translating more of the Wolfram and Hart Scroll, but he’s quietly absorbed in the text. His fingers brush the vellum gently, coaxing answers from the script.

Then a vision reaches for her, and she slumps against her desk top, hands clenched across the surface, eyes closed tight against the raging glimpse of hell.

She rides the tumult as best as she can, picking up what she needs, and when it lets her go the first thing she feels is his hands on her shoulders, sure as the rising sun.

Opens her eyes and sees him down in front of her, eyes searching her face.

Does he see something to draw, she wonders.

“Cordelia?” He prompts her softly, fingers pressing the bones of her shoulders, willing her to speak.

She realizes he’s waiting for her to tell him who needs help and where to go, and shame makes her hot under the skin. He’s still Angel, still willing to fight for good.

Through the pounding in her skull, she searches the disjointed images.

“There’s a vampire waiting for a couple to come home. He’s in the bushes in front of their apartment. 1450 West Circle Blvd.”

Wesley’s warm gaze is full of concern.

“Will you be okay?”

She nods, giving him a small smile of assurance, and he turns and heads for the weapons cabinet, already thinking of the mission ahead.

Angel won’t let her go, pressing his fingertips into her skin.

Wesley waits by the double doors, a sword in each hand.


He slides his palms down her arms in a caress that makes her quiver and shake.

“Go.” She whispers.

Please go.

“Lie down,” he says as he gets up. “Get some sleep.”


One hungry vamp, and not very bright.

Angel makes short work of it, angry again at the cost to Cordelia, for this one runt of the undead litter.

Swinging the sword in one easy arc, he severs the head and then watches as the ashes settle over the shrubs and grass at the end of the block.

“That was easy.” Wesley says, sounding slightly disappointed.

Angel agrees.

Too damn easy.


fangs in her flesh, seeping, weeping wound, and she cries but he can’t hear, lost in ecstasy, teeth and cock tearing at her, and she screams but he can’t hear

She jerks from the dream, head up from the cradle of her arms.

Her skin tightens.

She’s not alone.

Something creeping, something craven.

Something floating in the corner of her eye.

Turning her head, she sees a drawing pinned to the cabinet door.

Her, blood drenched and dead.

Getting up, she tears it down, before Wesley or Gunn comes back, before anyone sees it.

Someone laughs.

She turns, staring into the half open doors of Angel’s office, seeing nothing but darkness and the shadowed outline of his desk.

Then a spot of diaphanous white appears between the wooden doors.

Cordelia focuses her eyes, finally seeing the white limbs and white blond hair.

Blood runs cold in her veins when the woman smiles, exposing her fangs, gleaming and sharp.

“Hello, princess.”


The Hyperion is quiet when Angel steps back through the entrance.

But he can smell Cordelia’s blood in the air, and closes his eyes, concentrating on its location.


He ascends quickly, feet barely touching the stairs, and rounds the corner in a blur.

Splintering the wood with his booted foot, he steps through the broken door, coming up sharply at the rich copper scent that stains the air in his suite.

Cordelia is lying across his bedspread, wearing a white nightgown so sheer, he can see the pale peach of her skin through the material.

Everything dims around him; everything important slips to the background.

All he can see is her, smell is her.

There’s a bite on the side of her throat, not a killing wound, but enough to make her bleed down into the empire collar of her gown.

Her head is turned to the side, eyes half open.

He whispers her name, terrified. For the unfocused look in her eyes, for the need that rises sharply in his gut, choking in his throat.

“A seer, darling boy, and yours.”

A hand winds its way around his collar, slipping over his skin as he stands frozen, afraid to move closer, unable to back away. Petite and deadly, Darla sways against his side, whispering softly of all the things he doesn’t dare think of.

“Take her like you dream of, Angelus, and release yourself from the chains that hold you back.”

Cordelia moans low in her throat, and he vamps, teeth aching, eyes coveting. He does want her, and he knows she wants him, though she tries to hide it, it shines from her every minute of every day.

“She does want you. She can lie, but her body doesn’t, her dreams don’t.”

The snake’s voice urges him closer and closer, and suddenly the toes of his boots are against his bed frame.

Cordelia lies before him like a sacrifice on an altar.

“All for you, love.”

He moves hesitantly at first, bending to crouch over her, then with more surety, moving up on the bed until he’s lying over her.

She kissed him once, trying to rid herself of the visions, but her pulse jumped all the same, and her lips tasted like sweet brandied pears.

Bending low, arms braced on either side of her head, he ghosts his mouth along her throat, gathering up traces of blood against his tongue, the taste exploding over his senses.

“Her blood is like wine, Angelus, sweetened by fear.”

Darla is a weight against his side, pressing him down over his seer, and he goes willingly, relishing the feel of her thighs against his, hipbone hard against his erection.

His teeth scrape the flesh of her throat.

“Bite her, give her what she’s been thinking of since she found your drawings.”

Pressing slightly, her flesh gives beneath the pressure of his fangs.

“That’s my boy.”

There is a rush of white noise right before he pushes his fangs in, a spray of blood hitting the back of his throat as Cordelia arches against him, her mouth open and her head back.

For one perfect moment, he is surrounded by her, drowning in her.

And then he’s pulled deeper.

holding her down, drinking from her neck and fucking her as she screams and claws his back, then it’s someone else, screaming and dying and pain ruptures his mind and he’s never been on this end before, helpless and hurt, begging for help that never comes-

The vision lets him go and he rears his head back, gasping with shock, staring down into Cordelia’s wide open and horrified eyes.


25th-Feb-2007 02:26 pm (UTC)
The vision lets him go and he rears his head back, gasping with shock, staring down into Cordelia’s wide open and horrified eyes.

Oh, my Lord *shakes in horror* I truly thought he was going to kill her. *sniffles*

If Darla isn't a figment... kill her instead.


Wonderfully written, like a petrifying yet addictive painting.

Thank you for the rush: good and bad.;-)

25th-Feb-2007 08:51 pm (UTC)
Thank you for trusting me enough to read it:D

Sorry for the scare, though. :P
25th-Feb-2007 10:19 pm (UTC)
Don't apologise, M. As much as I hate to admit it,one of the pairing killed can be written as beautifully as a sonnet, depending on the writer. You have that pegged.....but I did trust you not to, lol.

Kinda reminds me of Ness' fic 'Funny' when I wrote that bit at the top....achingly painful yet just so .... yanno. You may regret/hate the ending, but you'll never regret reading it.

I know how much you love both C/A alive (one of em, sorta, :P) and kicking :D

If I had one ounce of your talent, I'd consider myself extremely blessed. as alwayssaid: never stop.

25th-Feb-2007 05:02 pm (UTC)
This is Gabriella's doctor - she seems to have collapsed and spontaneously combusted upon impact. Rest assured, we *will* be filing charges. If this part is anything to go by, you are *clearly* responsible.
25th-Feb-2007 08:55 pm (UTC)
Sorry for the combustion, but - thank you...?

I'm less sure of this than any other I've ever written - actually, I'm not sure if I like it or not, so your patient's reaction is very gratifying to the alleged writer of this piece.

25th-Feb-2007 09:31 pm (UTC)
26th-Feb-2007 03:31 am (UTC)
I know!

2nd-Mar-2007 05:31 am (UTC)
Took me a few days to get over here. Work. Have to love it.

I did notice, like you said, the tone and energy had changed but I think it works better for this chapter. It isn't exactly fluffy or happy and I think you have the perfect tone and pacing for it.

I can't wait until that last chapter. This was truly amazing.
2nd-Mar-2007 07:18 am (UTC)


Truthfully, I can't wait to finish this. WIPs make me crazy anyway, but now that I've done it, I feel like I have laundry half folded someplace. Driving me. crazy.
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